I absolutely have NO idea what the f u c kk am I doing now. My whole life seems all effin-messed up.

I mean, just LOOK how pathetic I am right now. Actually, I met up with one of my friends just few days ago(and i'm not going to write about what we did), and during the halfway, she just asked me, "Tyron, are you like, in love with someone? And the person is not giving it back to you?"

I couldn't be able to give her an answer. I could think of nothing but kept myself quiet until she started giving me the sympathetic look. I really do wanted to answer her, but i don't know.. I just couldn't. Instead, I just started feeling some unknown sadness which I have never felt it before. Then I just had to admit the fact that I helplessly fell in love(like the first time ever in my f u c k ing entire life) AT THE FRIGGIN' PERFECT MOMENT when I know myself moving to London not more than two months after, which means i'll be saying 'bye bye' to that person in less than a two months, and I am not even sure whether that person is even interested in me or not. And I'm kind of guessing that this will never be able to work out which makes me feel even more shitty. Crap, I really have no idea if that person is like, even bother considering me as a 'friend', or a 'figure', or a 'thing', or even lesser.

These days I really feel like I am driving through the long and dark tunnel with only a minimum guidance provided by the dim lighting, and I am pretty much aware of the fact that I just entered the tunnel so I still have a long way to go. I really hope that at the end of this tunnel, I can just laugh it off all the feelings that I am having now, and able to say the phrase that Jaz told me I will definitely yell this out one day, "Oh my god. I just can't believe I had a feeling for this kind of person. I MUST BE KIDDING MYSELF! *slaps forehead*".

P.S: I know someone will say this when she reads today's post. "TYRON! YOU'RE NOW BEHAVING LIKE A HIGH SCHOOL GIRL WHO IS OVERLY-OBSESSED WITH ROMANCE NOVELS!!!!" But hey, sometimes I do enjoy reading all those crappy-and-yet-so-cheesy romance novels! XDD
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(내가 찍은건데, 아무래도 역시 아직은 멀었다...)

...가끔 이런 생각이 든다.

내 삶은 온전히 내것이 아니라 누군가나, 어떤 무언가에게 빌린것, 혹은 대여한것이고

그리고 언젠가는 반드시 내 삶을 죽음이던, 어떤것을 통해서든 반납해야 하는거라고...

그렇다면, 나의 삶을 반납해야 할 시기가 왔을 때,


-내가 그에 준하는 정당한 대가를 치르고 "내 삶과 내가 이룩해놓은 모든 것들은 완전한 내 것입니다." 라고 말할 수 있을까?

P.S: 미친 소리한다고 생각하는 사람도 있을거라는 거 안다. 그런데, 우리가 그냥 부모님 덕으로 거저 이 세상에 태어난 것은 아닐거라고 생각하지 않아?
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-World's second most populated city aka my hometown XD



Seriously, past few days were most chaotic moments ever happened to me throuout this year.

I mean, so many things happened until i didn't even have enough time to breathe. I'm studying damn friggin' hard to score well for my exams, and actually, i don't exactly need to score well for it, but you know, it's like the test for all I have learned so far since the day I came to Singapore, so I would be very sad and hurt(-_-) if I fail to score well for this. Therefore, i'm practically spending ALL MY DAYS in library until i fell sick... O.o Oh well, I just really hope that I would feel satisfied for what I have done in Singapore for past 3 years, so I can put a nice-looking full stop at the end of my stay in this country.

Second thing is that I just realized I have a serious crush on someone, and that person doesn't even consider me as

......a thing.

Well, maybe as a friend, yes, but for a dating material? err.... I don't think so. Probably the best way to solve this problem is just to get over and don't think about it at all. Well.. I'm actually trying my very best to do that as well as to get rid of this same old melancholy-feeling but to be honest, who can forget about it so easily? (If you are the one who can do that, please, do advise me about it)

Third thing is about some dry-and-so-boring-to-the-high-heaven kinda thingy. Currency rate of Korean Won against US Dollar is rising up so high until the rising speed of that literally appear to me as a "pure insanity". Well, I was constantly reading news and bunch of articles about those 'credit crisis', or a series of bankruptcy of those huge US-based Investment banks, but seriously, I never knew it will hit me so hard with a perfect, and state-of-art kind of punch directly onto my face. I mean, because of all that shitty things happening on the global economy + my home country's stupid Minister of Strategy and Finance practicing a WRONG economic agenda for past 9 months(I'm giving him a full-respect, really), so the korean won's value dropped so much against US Dollar, almost 50%. That means, very unfortunately, I had to see(and certainly didn't wish to) my family's savings, investments, and properties are losing its value so badly until it dropped down to half of what it used to worth just a few months back. This was indeed a painful experience cuz we never, EVER experienced something like this before. I've actually talked about all these with my mom last night, and yea.. I'm not about to elaborate all the details we have talked and discussed because it's just.... not a good thing to mention here, and I most definitely don't wish to write about it either.

*sigh* ah well, yea so these things were what I had to gone through for past few days, and I'm pretty darn exhausted. That's why I'm so looking forward for this weekend :) I'M ATTENDING A FASHION SHOWWW!! XD
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