~StRiCtLy TyRoN ZoNe~

sick of it.

2009-05-11T04:16:00.002+08:00

I'm completely sick of pretending.

It's not like I don't have any desire or happened to have such a strong and cold blooded heart which will allow me to always stay calm and help me to stand still about whatever things you say to me without knowing or considering how I feel about you.

I'm really tired of celebrating and pretend to be happy and being supportive whenever you've got yourself a nice looking boyfriend and always expecting me to give you a full support.

I NEED YOU AND WANT YOU MUCH MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE.

p.s: i think i'm just effin-idiot. The only reason i'm writing this crap here is because there's no way you can see this post since you don't even know that it exists. Plus, how would you know that i'm talking about you anyway?

OH MY GOD.

2009-03-04T05:31:00.002+08:00

OH MY GOD. I KNOW I KNOW! i haven't updated my blogs for like 3 solid months!!!! I've been always reminding myself to update a new post, but for some crazy reason, it has been delayed all the way until now. Ah well~ at least now i'm bothering to post! xDDDDDD

hmmmmmmmm.... Many things have been changed since i have updated last time at here. Now i'm staying in London, but no longer in Singapore(i miss you guys so much! *sniff sniff* T_T), turning 18 in less than 15 days(YAY! no more curfews!), currently attached(wheee! xDDD), and stuff like that rofl. Basically, i'm really enjoying my life recently xDDDDDDDD

My school is pretty much fine in general just that sometimes i feel it's way too money-minded. I mean, you gotta pay 2 pounds for washing machine, and 1 pound for dryer at laundrette when it's usually free for other school's student residence :x. Well, and there's many more, but i just don't really wanna mention it here cuz i'll be ending up sound like a total bitch :x but hey, i REALLY do like my school! xDDD and i'm making kick-ass grades as well! I made ALL STRAIGHT As for this term and i'm pretty happy about that though it won't be occupy much in my final results but still, who cares?!!!?! I FEEL AWESOMEEEE! xDDDDDD

London is a pretty attractive city I guess. I've been around here for about 2 months and i already started loving this city xDDD. Some people say it's pretty boring down here, but for me, there's so much things to do! xDDDD I went to see few of the plays and musicals which were great, and shopping districts here are just RAWKKKK!!! :DDDDD(and yea, tat's the thing that i care most MUAHAHAHAHAHA)

OH, AND I GOTTA TELL YOU THIS!!! I talked to Jessica yesterday, and OH MY LORD, SHE'S FINALLY IN LOVEEEEEEEE!!!! xDDDDD trust me, I have NEVER SEEN her being so hyper and "desperate" whenever she talks about guys apart from him xDDDDD as one of her besties, i'm TOTALLY interested to know who is he, and how is he look like, but she's refusing to give me ANY of the photos or showing his facebook profile(she's being herself as usual :p). MEANIEEEEEE!!!! *pout*

ANYWAY~~~ i gotta go~ :))) Manita wants me to go for a smoke with her so yea~ c you guys! xxxx

I'm back.

2008-12-21T21:00:00.003+08:00

Well... First of all, I'm really sorry for not updating my blog for so long.. haha I think i'm writing this to every single posts that I write rofl XD.

I'm now back in home! It's really, REALLY COLD down here!!!! I thought I was going to be freeze to death when I stepped out of airport terminal.. o.O lolz. Many people were asking about how do I feel back at home but actually, I wouldn't say my first week at home was great because I have been suffering due to gastritis... Ah well, I'm almost recovered, and I'm pretty happy about that ^_^. Seriously, I think I have to eat more regularly, and stop skipping meals, because it feels really crappy and you lose all your will to do anything when your stomach goes wrong. This is a very true fact and it's totally guaranteed by my experience XDDD.

I met few of my frenz while I was suffering from gastritis and I have no idea where did I get an energy to actually go out and laugh away with my frenz back here in Korea with having myself a wounded stomach o.O but ah well, I managed to do it somehow and I found out something very interesting. There's one fren whom I have known since 7, and I JUST FIGURED OUT HE ACTUALLY RIDES A MOTORBIKE! OMG! It was a total shock for me when I saw him riding his motorbike and approached to me :x WOW... and he looked pretty damn right cool on it(hmmm.. maybe it's a time for me to get myself a one fine bike or something :ppppp).

OH WELL~~~ I hope you guys are now having a great holiday season~! And guess what?! CHRISTMAS IS COMING!!!! Not that I have someone whom I love is beside me to spend time with me on Christmas but WHO CARES?!?!? IT'S HOLIDAY AND I'M SO GOANNA ENJOY IT!! YOU JUST WATCH ME!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA XDDDDDDDD

XD

2008-11-30T20:26:00.002+08:00

i know i know, i was just being really lazy to update a post on my bloggy. but ah well, what to do? i'm just not the person who updates regularly. anywayz, as always, a lot of things happened. I had a prom night, which was AWESOMEEEE, and had a few parties to attend rofl.

well, i just have to say after-exam life is just SO GREAT. how can anyone hate this kind of life? i mean, you don't have to wake up so early in the morning just to go to school, don't really have to study for quizzes, tests, exams, or what so ever. my life has never been great as much as now XD.

anywayz~ i hope everyone who are reading this post will have an exciting end of the year season :))

HAPPY HOLIDAY!!!

things i have done.

2008-11-12T00:32:00.004+08:00

Back stabbed.

Getting betrayed.

Sacrifice(in many ways).

Way too high expectations.

Getting bitched every now and then.

Leaving families and friends behind and carry on with my life.

Seeing someone/something which I'll never be able to get it.

Act as if nothing happened when something really happens.

Put a smile on face. ALWAYS. NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS.
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Well, would you dare to say you're not going to turned out to be insane if you had this kinda things happening all over you for at least past 10 years? *grins*

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2008-11-10T01:16:00.002+08:00

Well.. Go ahead and call me effin-whore/slut if that makes you happier than what you are right now.

OMG!

2008-11-09T01:43:00.005+08:00

OH MY GOD....

I haven't updated my blog for SO LONGGGG!!! =pppp Oh well, if I have to make any excuses, that would be, first, I had been SOOOOO busy because of my exams, and second, I am just too lazy to keep myself diligent on blogging(yea I know, probably this is the main reason for me not being consistent enough :x)

You know, I've only left with one, JUST ONE MORE PAPER! I'm just EFFIN-HAPPY!!!! XDD Like finally, I can say goodbye(*sniffs and wipes tears with tissue*) to science-related subjects FOR GOOD because there's no way that I will be majoring something SCIENCE(-_-) for my degree, HECK NO!!!! But oh well... Since I'm planning to take Accountancy & International Finance or Banking & International Finance, so it is kind of obvious I can't say goodbye to math for rest of my life... *sigh* ah well, but at least I don't have to give myself a headache for trying to understand bunch of miserable chemical properties or any equations that totally and utterly concerns a something related to "physics". I'm already happy enough for that XDD

Anywayz! Recently many people(i mean, those people who actually KNOW about it), asking me "oh, how's you and your crush/baby(-_-^^^)/highness/potential-lover/whatever-they-say" and my answer is "NOTHING." I mean, hello~~~~ this merciless person doesn't even KNOW about my feelings + I'm like leaving Singapore in less than 20 days, so what can I do about it? It seems like me getting over with it and move on is the best option that I have in my hands at the moment. So yea, people(i mean those specific group) stop asking me about it because I really have no contents to actually talk about.

BLEAH =ppp my facial skin is experiencing a MAJOR breakout since last week, and I tell you, it's really a major, M-A-J-O-R!!!! Gosh, I'm trying anything and everything to improve the situation, but seriously, I'm now having a pitiful red blemishes all over my face. Crap. What a great week I'm having -_-ll

When evrything seems to be in a wrong place.

2008-10-19T01:48:00.007+08:00

I absolutely have NO idea what the f u c kk am I doing now. My whole life seems all effin-messed up.

I mean, just LOOK how pathetic I am right now. Actually, I met up with one of my friends just few days ago(and i'm not going to write about what we did), and during the halfway, she just asked me, "Tyron, are you like, in love with someone? And the person is not giving it back to you?"

I couldn't be able to give her an answer. I could think of nothing but kept myself quiet until she started giving me the sympathetic look. I really do wanted to answer her, but i don't know.. I just couldn't. Instead, I just started feeling some unknown sadness which I have never felt it before. Then I just had to admit the fact that I helplessly fell in love(like the first time ever in my f u c k ing entire life) AT THE FRIGGIN' PERFECT MOMENT when I know myself moving to London not more than two months after, which means i'll be saying 'bye bye' to that person in less than a two months, and I am not even sure whether that person is even interested in me or not. And I'm kind of guessing that this will never be able to work out which makes me feel even more shitty. Crap, I really have no idea if that person is like, even bother considering me as a 'friend', or a 'figure', or a 'thing', or even lesser.

These days I really feel like I am driving through the long and dark tunnel with only a minimum guidance provided by the dim lighting, and I am pretty much aware of the fact that I just entered the tunnel so I still have a long way to go. I really hope that at the end of this tunnel, I can just laugh it off all the feelings that I am having now, and able to say the phrase that Jaz told me I will definitely yell this out one day, "Oh my god. I just can't believe I had a feeling for this kind of person. I MUST BE KIDDING MYSELF! *slaps forehead*".

P.S: I know someone will say this when she reads today's post. "TYRON! YOU'RE NOW BEHAVING LIKE A HIGH SCHOOL GIRL WHO IS OVERLY-OBSESSED WITH ROMANCE NOVELS!!!!" But hey, sometimes I do enjoy reading all those crappy-and-yet-so-cheesy romance novels! XDD

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2008-10-18T01:07:00.005+08:00

(내가 찍은건데, 아무래도 역시 아직은 멀었다...)

...가끔 이런 생각이 든다.

내 삶은 온전히 내것이 아니라 누군가나, 어떤 무언가에게 빌린것, 혹은 대여한것이고

그리고 언젠가는 반드시 내 삶을 죽음이던, 어떤것을 통해서든 반납해야 하는거라고...

그렇다면, 나의 삶을 반납해야 할 시기가 왔을 때,

-내가 그에 준하는 정당한 대가를 치르고 "내 삶과 내가 이룩해놓은 모든 것들은 완전한 내 것입니다." 라고 말할 수 있을까?

P.S: 미친 소리한다고 생각하는 사람도 있을거라는 거 안다. 그런데, 우리가 그냥 부모님 덕으로 거저 이 세상에 태어난 것은 아닐거라고 생각하지 않아?

Standing at the Middle of Perfect Chaos, All by Myself.

2008-10-09T22:47:00.009+08:00

-World's second most populated city aka my hometown XD

Seriously, past few days were most chaotic moments ever happened to me throuout this year.

I mean, so many things happened until i didn't even have enough time to breathe. I'm studying damn friggin' hard to score well for my exams, and actually, i don't exactly need to score well for it, but you know, it's like the test for all I have learned so far since the day I came to Singapore, so I would be very sad and hurt(-_-) if I fail to score well for this. Therefore, i'm practically spending ALL MY DAYS in library until i fell sick... O.o Oh well, I just really hope that I would feel satisfied for what I have done in Singapore for past 3 years, so I can put a nice-looking full stop at the end of my stay in this country.

Second thing is that I just realized I have a serious crush on someone, and that person doesn't even consider me as

......a thing.

Well, maybe as a friend, yes, but for a dating material? err.... I don't think so. Probably the best way to solve this problem is just to get over and don't think about it at all. Well.. I'm actually trying my very best to do that as well as to get rid of this same old melancholy-feeling but to be honest, who can forget about it so easily? (If you are the one who can do that, please, do advise me about it)

Third thing is about some dry-and-so-boring-to-the-high-heaven kinda thingy. Currency rate of Korean Won against US Dollar is rising up so high until the rising speed of that literally appear to me as a "pure insanity". Well, I was constantly reading news and bunch of articles about those 'credit crisis', or a series of bankruptcy of those huge US-based Investment banks, but seriously, I never knew it will hit me so hard with a perfect, and state-of-art kind of punch directly onto my face. I mean, because of all that shitty things happening on the global economy + my home country's stupid Minister of Strategy and Finance practicing a WRONG economic agenda for past 9 months(I'm giving him a full-respect, really), so the korean won's value dropped so much against US Dollar, almost 50%. That means, very unfortunately, I had to see(and certainly didn't wish to) my family's savings, investments, and properties are losing its value so badly until it dropped down to half of what it used to worth just a few months back. This was indeed a painful experience cuz we never, EVER experienced something like this before. I've actually talked about all these with my mom last night, and yea.. I'm not about to elaborate all the details we have talked and discussed because it's just.... not a good thing to mention here, and I most definitely don't wish to write about it either.

*sigh* ah well, yea so these things were what I had to gone through for past few days, and I'm pretty darn exhausted. That's why I'm so looking forward for this weekend :) I'M ATTENDING A FASHION SHOWWW!! XD

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2008-09-25T22:35:00.002+08:00

....또 왜 나타난거냐?

거의 다 잊었었는데.. 이젠 너 생각 거의 안했는데...

그냥 또 가지고 놀고싶은거야?

난 몇달있으면 떠나니까 그전에 너 만족할 때 까지 단물

다 빨아 먹겠다는거야? 그리고 다시 버리고?

ㅋㅋㅋ 그런데 말이야 내가 더 참을 수 없는건

너 이렇다는거 다 아는데, 필요할 때만 나 찾는다는것도 다 알고,

지금이 그 때 라는것도 알고있고, 냉정하게 쳐내야 된다는것도 다 아는데

.....그걸 못하겠어, 참 한심하게도.

XDDDD

2008-09-24T22:00:00.002+08:00

BLEAH! I REALLY didn't feel like going school today when i woke up this morning, so I conveniently skipped it :DD (I love my life, oh yea). The first thing I checked after I woke up was to listen the songs that I downloaded over the night. I actually bothered to download the whole album of Mamma Mia OST lolz. I just LOVE that movie, so as the sound tracks. I mean, WHO HATES ABBA?!?!? TELL ME ABOUT IT!!!!! XDDD

I went down to library at bugis on this afternoon and the seats were completely full so i had no choice but to sit at the starbucks at the wheelock place and "tried" so hard to study but i didn't think it worked out so well because the surrounding was SO NOISY and some caucasian couple asked me to if i could let them share the table. AND OH MY GOD. It was my total mistake to let them share the same table as me because they were being SO NOISY, SO CHATTY, and yet SO CHEESY(like hugging, kissing, i mean, deep kissing, yea) until i could not stand them. SO, I had to leave that place. Then again, I didn't feel like go other places and continue studying, so I went to Kinokuniya and bought some books. BLEAH =p today was a total waste.. *sigh*

Oh, and one last thing, my friend asked me to buy one chic-lit for her called "Chasing Harry Winston" by. Lauren Weisberger. Yea, the same author who wrote "The Devil Wears PRADA". I actually decided to read a few pages before passing away to my friend, and I laughed SO HARD at this part.(I apologize to the author if i'm spoiling your copyright T_T). One girl was so sad cuz she just broke up, and two other girls ask her to bitch, or spit out some humiliating parts of her boyfriend, so she would feel better, and the girl who just broke up actually confessed that her bf wears her PANTIES to work -_-. and then again, two other girls thought he would wear some bikinis, or boy shorts, or wadeva things, but the 'broken-up' girl said her now-ex-bf never interested in those things but he surely liked her thongs. OMFG! Maybe i should start reading her books even though it is a girl's gossip novels cuz i just LOVE the way she jokes on her book! XD

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2008-09-23T21:02:00.001+08:00

...나 지금 잘하고 있는건가?

요즘 내 자신에 대한 회의가 들 때가 많다..

Getting back the prelim papers is horrible(like totally)

2008-09-22T23:06:00.006+08:00

(this photo is taken by me. like totally XD)

=p I just got back home not long ago. It was a pretty great day except for I have figured out that I actually flunked my math prelim.... I was like, expecting B3 or A2 for my math paper.. *sigh* oh well.. what can I do about it now... I just gotta do bloody well for my O level.. XD oh yea, talking about the math results, I was so horrified with my grades and so as wei liang, so we tried REALLY hard to spot out the marking errors, and wei liang managed spot quite alot of mistakes but unfortunately, I couldn't spot any.. T_T UGHHHZZZZ I really gotta admit that Mrs. Fu is an art of perfection(and I kinda like her class anywayz XD).

After school,I went to watch a movie with bobo. We actually watched two movies in a row!! XD Mamma Mia and Disaster Movie. Mamma Mia was SOOOOOO GREAT MOVIE and I recommend to all the people who are reading this post to go and catch this movie ASAP. but Disaster Movie... errrr...I just really have to say IT WAS A TOTAL DISASTER just like the name of the movie -_-. I mean, I understand the fact that it is a parody of all the movies that have been published on this year, and I also understand they have only have short period of time to create this whole film but hey, atleast I would like to see some PROPER PLOTS! The whole movie was SO messy and I really don't know what they are trying to say. All I remember was this annoying Amy Winehouse(well not the real one) trying to act like some serious prophet which obviously did not work that well, and drinking some biofuel o.O(perhaps they planned it on purpose).

Anywayz~ XD It wasn't a bad day I guess HAHAHAZ oh, one last thing. Do remember to tag yourself on the tagboard! :DDD

My Very First Post!!

2008-09-22T00:36:00.001+08:00

hey!
It's my very first post for this blog hahaz. I really do hope this blog will last long enough(yea, like talking about my previous blog, it didn't last for more than a month o.O).

Anywayz, I have some interesting thing to share about what happened on last saturday. That day, I went out with "Miss. I'm Geographically So Perfect"(i'm not going to say the real name cuz i'm pretty sure that she will kill me if i put her real name XD), and she somehow decided to perform her amazing ability regarding her geographical knowledge. We went to Centrepoint Orchard, and there was this shop called "Milan Men's Boutique". I told her "wow.. Milan Men's Boutique.. But do you really think they are from Milan?" Then her answer was "I'm not sure... but hey, Milan is in CANADA, right?" And OH MY GOD! Trust me, I had so much fun time explaining her why an earth Milan must be located in Italy. ROFLLL! After that we went to starbucks, drinking some coffee, and I remember we were talking about something at somewhere in India. Then I happened to mention the name of this country called Nepal. Then she suddenly became so excited, and yelled this phrase out in a full of confidence "OH! I KNOW WHERE NEPAL IS!! IT'S SOMEWHERE IN RUSSIA RIGHTTTT?!?"(ahem, Nepal is located in South Asia, in between India and China)........I just couldn't help myself from laughing so hard until ppl at the other tables were start to woner 'geez, what the heck is wrong with those two mad kids?'

BLEAH =p it's already like 12 25am, and I REALLY GOTTA GO AND SLEEP unless I want to get screwed by teachers tomorrow for being late o.O

bye bye~~ :D

P.S: Miss. I'm Geographically So Perfect's brilliant excuse = "I DON'T CARE ABOUT OTHER PARTS OF THE WORLD UNLESS I WANNA LIVE THERE!"